Being honest, I really don't want to go back to the farm. As much as Mom is difficult here,I like it here at the hotel. We are all together and I cherish this time. Only I had to eat into all my reserves to stay here longer. Kiddo is mad at me bc i extended our stay by three days but we can't get the ride wee want back on the day so we extended our stay again..but if we had just made it fo four days the first time we could have had it at a discounted rate.
I don't want to have to leave the hotel.
Our two three biggest problems right now
Lack of transportation
Lack of money
And our completely resistant and loathing the idea of going someplace where someone is going to try to control our lives and limit the freedom on how we do things .
I don't want to leave this hotel bc even though mom doesn't like it as my much I feel mentally and emotionally safe here.
If we were made of money then I'd have more freedom to come and go and we would just rent out the hotel room for the year.. and then we could leave ane come back as needed.
Yes yes that what I wish for. I wish we had the mk money to be able to come and go from this hotel room as we wanted. So we could still be on Houston to go work on my mom's old home so we could slowly slowly slowly make that space a liveable space ( my sister held onto it for Mom but it's currently not a liveable space so we need to repair it before we can live there but before we can go that I would have to be able to go there and organize it bc we have used it as a storage space over the years)
You know if you wanted to give me a gift. You would make it so we had our hotel space available to us for the rest of the year (or as long as we needed to feel safe)
Hire us a driver for that year so we could come and go as we please.. and then we would go to the farm to learn how to do the aircrere build and build the structure to go around all of our stuff that is currentiy under the tarps..
Then once that is built we would go back to Mom's old place and build a temporary living space there so we could then do what we need to do what we need to do there in our own timeline.
Then in our nice slow time renovate the space.
And somewhere in all that someone somewhere buys back my del Monte home and keeps it from getting demolished and someday let's us back and live there.
That is my current wish ..
Letting Mom's and kiddo and I be always together with kiddo building his tech infrastructure, Mom and I out in our family's gardens making a food forest back at the del monte home after we finished rebuilding Mom's old home. Getting to have a access to this particular hotel room until we ready to part with it. And having a personal driver to drive us around so we were no longer limited by transportation problems bc we cannot drive (mental disability).
That is what I wish for
February 2026
Oh and wishing we were making money online so we never had to worry about money ever again