- Seeking : LTR, Friends, Travel Companion, Pen Pals, Just Curious, Other, Celibate Relationship, Celibate Marriage Languages: English
- Marital: Divorced
- Spiritual Beliefs: Conscious/Spiritual
- Diet: omnivore
- Drink: Socially
- Tobacco: don’t smoke
- 420: No marijuana for me
- Exercise: 1-2 days/week
- Energy Level: Average
- Education: Some college
- How Green?Medium Green (mostly green lifestyle)
- Political Views: Prefer not to say
- Children: one , kids live full-time
- Willing to relocate:No
- Sun Sign:Not sure
- Rising Sign:Not Sure
- Moon Sign:Not sure
- Chinese Sign:Not Sure
- Ethnicity:Other
- Height:5’0-5’3 (1.52 m - 1.62 m)
- Body Type:Slim/Slender
- Ayurvedic Body Type:Not sure
- Weight:Less than 100 lbs (45.45 kg)
- Hair:Brown, Medium curly/wavy
- Eye: Brown eyes
- Use eyewear?Other
More Depth
(personality/attitude/passions/beliefs):
trying to find a relationship with spirits/souls who would also be willing to co-own our home with us.
( the moderators do not want me to go into much, if any, detail because they want to avoid classified ads and would prefer i stick with what I am looking for in a romantic partner. -- But see that is exactly what I am looking for in a romantic partner:: Is the person who would actually be willing to help us with our dream,
who would be willing to buy my ex out and helps us do our dream to convert the property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis
We need someone who would be willing to help make our dream and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true
Letting us and allowing and helping us to convert it into a place that we dream about for this tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the city all at the same time .... showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)
Ideally with the help of sharing our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching and inspiring others along the way?
That is the relationship we would prefer.. that is the partner we prefer.
who would be willing to buy my ex out and helps us do our dream to convert the property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis
We need someone who would be willing to help make our dream and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true
Letting us and allowing and helping us to convert it into a place that we dream about for this tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the city all at the same time .... showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)
Ideally with the help of sharing our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching and inspiring others along the way?
That is the relationship we would prefer.. that is the partner we prefer.
Someone who will make it possible
and allow for us to do this..
Although we do wish we could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),
unfortunately the only kind of person I would actually be willing to be romantically involved with us is the kind of person who would actually be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family.
You dont have to live with us, just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream. Sharing a connection to us.
so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors -- which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place... But we seek someone who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!
here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.
we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.
....
Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.
Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.
So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.
But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "
And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..
Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.
It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.
something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..
There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.
May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...
...
my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony
Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family. Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allo edtp share every thought with them as well..
I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.
...
Hmm.. I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.
In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting and appreciative people who actually accept and appreciate us and our family the way we are,
and who will accept others the way they are.l as well.
We are very passionate about our hopes and dreams.
Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,
2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,
and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day
3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and
4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.
(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)
So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way --please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.
Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D
-- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years
It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?
We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..
We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.
We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..
we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city -- but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.
We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,
It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.
But
We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.
I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..
So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .
But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.
Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,
But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.
I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,
They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.
Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it -- with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.
Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.
Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.
Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution
We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...
We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us -- it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.
NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills
We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.
When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.
By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.
And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.
If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.
We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.
and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)
and allow for us to do this..
Although we do wish we could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),
unfortunately the only kind of person I would actually be willing to be romantically involved with us is the kind of person who would actually be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family.
You dont have to live with us, just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream. Sharing a connection to us.
so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors -- which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place... But we seek someone who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!
here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.
we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.
....
Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.
Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.
So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.
But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "
And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..
Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.
It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.
something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..
There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.
May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...
...
my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony
Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family. Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allo edtp share every thought with them as well..
I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.
...
Hmm.. I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.
In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting and appreciative people who actually accept and appreciate us and our family the way we are,
and who will accept others the way they are.l as well.
We are very passionate about our hopes and dreams.
Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,
2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,
and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day
3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and
4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.
(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)
So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way --please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.
Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D
-- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years
It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?
We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..
We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.
We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..
we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city -- but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.
We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,
It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.
But
We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.
I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..
So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .
But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.
Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,
But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.
I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,
They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.
Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it -- with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.
Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.
Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.
Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution
We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...
We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us -- it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.
NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills
We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.
When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.
By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.
And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.
If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.
We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.
and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)
inner wisdom
In a dream world, yes sure we would love to find soemone who yes had the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.
But i also wish to find souls that we admire or who inspire us or who shar some viewpoint about life that we wish to encourage in our life.
yes sure, we desperately want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects
but we also need people in our lives who will help us to feel safe enough to connect to our own inner wisdom
& patience.
Somebody who believes in communication and empathy and active listening and body listening or is at least willing to allow us to learn all that
Someone who is aware that though I may deeply need to be hugged and loved, that it may be awhile before I heal enough to be my old sensuality.
True, I do not know when that will be.
My past tells me it will occur naturally if and when I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again, but I do not know when that will be.
I know that eventually I will be there.
Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with..
People we can trust.
that our dreams are safe, that we are accepted and loved,
who will encourage us to do our projects,
That feeling of reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning
In a dream world, yes sure we would love to find soemone who yes had the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.
But i also wish to find souls that we admire or who inspire us or who shar some viewpoint about life that we wish to encourage in our life.
yes sure, we desperately want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects
but we also need people in our lives who will help us to feel safe enough to connect to our own inner wisdom
& patience.
Somebody who believes in communication and empathy and active listening and body listening or is at least willing to allow us to learn all that
Someone who is aware that though I may deeply need to be hugged and loved, that it may be awhile before I heal enough to be my old sensuality.
True, I do not know when that will be.
My past tells me it will occur naturally if and when I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again, but I do not know when that will be.
I know that eventually I will be there.
Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with..
People we can trust.
that our dreams are safe, that we are accepted and loved,
who will encourage us to do our projects,
That feeling of reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning
ideally, I want a relationship with a person who would actually be willing to help us to fund and or do our projects,
But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content just to hang out with us as well
valuing our company and our dialogue if we interact with you..
and you treat us more as a close sister or cousin or close friend..
not actually needing for connection to me be a sexual relationship.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you? I need that first in life.
in fact, ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime I need you to just be happy with our just being
admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..
But it would need to be someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property and recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as well.
That we are all parts of a whole.
But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content just to hang out with us as well
valuing our company and our dialogue if we interact with you..
and you treat us more as a close sister or cousin or close friend..
not actually needing for connection to me be a sexual relationship.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you? I need that first in life.
in fact, ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime I need you to just be happy with our just being
admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..
But it would need to be someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property and recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as well.
That we are all parts of a whole.
Spendin time with you and my family in the garden
discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history
and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another
An topic that comes into being.
Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?
Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being
discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history
and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another
An topic that comes into being.
Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?
Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being
right now my job mostly consists of caring for elderly mom and raising a homeschooling teenager, while trying to keep our lives afloat until we are ready to go forward in create an online prescence to share ideas we would like to encourage being shared...
ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city
Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?
ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.
not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.
ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city
Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?
ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.
not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.
i video / take pictures of well, everything... all of life.. esp if it involves a transition or change of any kind... we also live in symbiosis with the tech to create a synthetic back up memory to our limited human memory banks. (this is a problem for some people, so you will need to be comfortable with this if you want to be around us. Especially after mom started developing memory issues, we have found it extrememly useful but even before kiddo and I found it extremely useful should there ever be even the mildest of conflicts, and it also has allowed for incredible insight in active listening & perspective learning.
Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.
i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))
i have been body listening my whole life
btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique: most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. not us.
we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city. Our immediate need is to save our own home this year but eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well -- which would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of the town. Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.
But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. That we have a history with.
That holds an emotional meaning to us.
I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..
and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.
it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "
I have now explained why this land and not some other. ---- It isn't about ease. or having more. ---- it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,
and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.
For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.
now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .
We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.
I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!
Even if it's just be being a friend,
or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey
ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..
like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.
final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...
And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.
When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......
Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.
i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))
i have been body listening my whole life
btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique: most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. not us.
we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city. Our immediate need is to save our own home this year but eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well -- which would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of the town. Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.
But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. That we have a history with.
That holds an emotional meaning to us.
I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..
and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.
it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "
I have now explained why this land and not some other. ---- It isn't about ease. or having more. ---- it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,
and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.
For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.
now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .
We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.
I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!
Even if it's just be being a friend,
or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey
ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..
like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.
final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...
And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.
When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......
video, plant edible plants in my own garden, listening to my son converse with people, sharing life with my familly, eating yummy organic/sustainable meals, watching documentaries/films with my family, curling up with my family
being aware of one's body and one's emotions and why you think a certain way and being aware of the people around you, their emotions, and why they think the way they do, being aware of the plants/life forces/life all around you,
a buddhist father, a mother who loves gardening, my son, every darn event and experience in our lives...
body listening: mostly shoulders and back. (similar to a combination of reiki, rosenmethod, tui nai, jin shin, trigger, passive joint movement, swedish, deep tissue, shiatsu, active listening, )
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.
attempting to practice a form of zero waste, composting, attempting to teach others about more environmentally harmonious ways of living, ,trying to convert our garden into a mostly edible and sustainable garden, though i mostly only work with 'exotic'gereen since I seem to kind of not know how to do regular vegetables :/, sigh
1)being able to be with my family, 2)recording & documenting as much of life as I possibly can,
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste
my mom and son, saving our home,
and sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.
and sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.
after saving & transforming the properties with vision we have for it,
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?
ALL -+ but ONLY if we have a working camera with enough battery and storage space to video and record the entirety of it all.
2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.
2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.
Books on communication, self awareness, leadership, conflict transformation, food forests, regenerative practices, fantasy, sci-fi,
early baroque, jazz, linda sterling, harp, synth, blues, 80's, red priest, russian classicals, musicals-gershwin, gypsy kings, long list..
officially: one queen indoor/outdoor cat,
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.
Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.
Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives
IF I had the money, there are several educators on Patreon whom I would support and the Inga Foundation, Geoff Lawton's Permaculture Institute, Dan Barber's Work, other land regenerative projects.
Kiddo, mom & I sharing events together.
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others
I wish I could share with you some of the links we like to share neat insights and thoughts on.
Even if you dont think we would be a good match, I hope you will still allow us to be connected even just as acquaintances or as friends..
We are all always connected, but it would be nice to also be allowed to share views and thoughts & learn from you even off this site.
I know many on here are opposed to social media but do you know of a better way to reach folks who might not otherwise have a way to be exposed to new and interesting ideas or perspectives?
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.
My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..
from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.
We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..
and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .
All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,
bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.
much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..
Thank you!!!
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.
My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..
from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.
We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..
and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .
All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,
bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.
much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..
Thank you!!!
I know on here I should have some spiritual answer
but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives
Right now this particular year,
what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.
I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.
You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.
After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)
Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.
-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -
I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.
FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.
Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.
Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.
There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.
We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend
But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.
Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .
but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives
Right now this particular year,
what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.
I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.
You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.
After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)
Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.
-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -
I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.
FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.
Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.
Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.
There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.
We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend
But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.
Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .
Grew up with a Buddhist Father, (who had once had our living room be a Meditation Hall with only pillows amd one rocking chair as furniture)
As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.
One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..
Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.
Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.
Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune
While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.
From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,
to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,
Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..
The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.
Though probably from a different angle now
- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)
Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....
And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)
The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....
From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...
To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made
to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..
To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....
To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....
Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..
Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.
As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.
One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..
Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.
Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.
Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune
While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.
From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,
to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,
Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..
The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.
Though probably from a different angle now
- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)
Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....
And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)
The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....
From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...
To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made
to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..
To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....
To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....
Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..
Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.
When I was a little girl, I could not hear music without dances being constantly choreographed in my head. Dance was my expression, my way of being.
Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...
Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.
For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.
So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.
I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..
The journey is long.
Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...
Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.
For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.
So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.
I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..
The journey is long.
Blog post Originally Published at 632am jun 20 2023
Profile originally created much much earlier